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I
noticed it one day in the window of a small antique shop. I could see it only
for a few seconds, from the window of the bus, on my way to work each morning.
At first, it was so cluttered by picture frames and old nic-nacs piled up on it
that I couldn’t even see what it really looked like. Each day I prepared for the
moment the bus would pass in front of the shop. I would have to stop time and
motion for as long as I could stare at the chair. I’d memorize its every curve,
inch by inch, then I’d quickly sketch it out on paper, one day at a time, for
weeks, months. I finally gave in and made my claim on the chair at the
shopkeeper’s doorstep. I continued to adore my prize in the window for ten
months, comfortable in the belief that I would soon have enough money to buy it.
It was within reason but not meant to be. Betrayed by the shopkeeper and out-bid
by a casual shopper, I lost the chair of my dreams in the space of a holiday
weekend. I had two life-size paintings of it already completed, each one the sum
of the parts I had burned in my memory. I had researched it, enquired about it,
knew it as a Victorian fainting couch. It was my new obsession. The smooth red
velvet material, the cool dark wood, the fullness of the pleats, and the shape
of the bench that could hug the body like a spoon. This was a woman’s chair. For
when she could no longer endure convention and could steal some much-needed
affection. Or, a convenient and seductive lieu for lovers. |